im ok i guess
well i had another nightmare today. it wasnt good. it seems my nightmares just get worse everytime. they are very scary.i hit my head and punched the wall i knocked stuff over on my night stand and stuff. i was crying and when i woke up i was woke up cause i was talking in my sleep. i cant believe no one heard me. it was really weird i know i talk in my sleep but i have never woke myself up from talking before. i am glad i did though i dont think i could handle much more of that dream. i relived everything almost that i went through when i was with him and then i moved here to south carolina in the dream and he found me and started a lot of krap and mom kicked me out of the house and i didnt have anyone to turn to exept my ex. i had to go with him. i had no choice. so i got my stuff and went with him and got beat up the whole time. it was really bad.
even though mom says i dont have to worry about ever getting kicked out of here or my ex ever touching me ever again i still get scared. so many people before have told me the same thing before and it still ended up happening. i cant help but be scared about it. i really hope its true though that i wont get kicked out of here. i really like it here. i love having a mom that cares.
well thats my thoughts for now.
i am still really tired i still havent slept all that good. i talked to a nurse on the phone today. she said i am anorexic too i dont know what it is with these people. why do they think i am anorexic just because i dont like food and i want to lose weight. i am not anorexic. i do not have an eating disorder. why cant anyone understand that? ugh. now i am getting mad. i shouldnt have started talking about that. its a really bad subject for me. anyways i am gone for now i cant talk no more. i will be back later.