going to try to sleep
i guess i am gonna try to sleep its 530 in the morning and i am not a bit tired i think its because i am afraid of the nightmares. i dont want to have them anymore but they just keep coming back. i just dont know what to do, i am totally freaked out.
i tried to tell my mom about the nightmares but words cant explain how horrible they are. she said i was crying in my sleep.i feel so bad for having a nightmare and her having to wake me up. i guess i will try to not fall asleep in the living room anymore.
i dont want to work today. i want to just stay home i am so tired i wish i didnt have to work. i like my new job i really do but i have no energy and i just dont feel like doing anything. errrrr anyways i am gonna try to go lay down i will write more tomorrow.